Everything Happens for a Reason

like a little caterpillar that turned into a butterfly

She’s such a beauty isn’t she? I cannot describe in words how I feel for her but all my worries just wash away when I look at her.

She’s the one.

so, what next?

Its been a month since I started my new job. Well not exactly new since its actually my old job. Well one thing has changed for sure. I don’t dread to go to work anymore. Ya know, it really does make a huge difference when you’re doing something you enjoy doing and doing something you hate. But whatever it is, I’m all over and done with that phase now. I’ve done my part, now its time for me to move on.

I don’t know why but I just feel so jaded lately. I used to really be really trying to chase money and all that stuff. I really just couldn’t care less anymore.

I don’t really care about if I get a promotion after this.
I don’t really care about the politics going around in the office (some things don’t change)
I don’t really care that my car is rattling so hard nowadays
I don’t really care that me blogging that I got back my old job might spark some issues with certain people
I don’t really care about the fact that i only have RM100 to use for the rest of the month
I don’t really care that CNY is coming
I don’t really care about the fact that my room is in a mess
I don’t really care that its 2:43am now and I’m supposed to sleep

I JUST DON’T CARE

I don’t know why I’m just so indifferent about so many things lately. Its definitely not me to feel this way. I just feel like I want to be happy and just do whatever I want to do with my life.

Today my dad told me something so honest that it hurts me that he doesn’t know what is coming next. I’m sorry pa but one day you will hopefully understand why I’m not the one you were hoping for it to be. For what its worth, it should never have been me in the first place. But of course you don’t understand that because you only believe what you want to believe. Sigh.

LOST

i will always be there for you… i promise

I think this post is very much long overdue as it has already been almost 2 months since I came back from Australia. I’m telling you, this trip has been for me the BEST trip I have ever had in all my 24 years thus far and it certainly won’t be the last time I’m going there. Its such a beautiful country, I’ll take one very good example, have a look at the photo of Dove Lake, I didn’t even have to edit it!

In a duration of just 19 days, I have travelled to 3 different cities, stayed in numerous backpackers place, seen things I have never seen before, took more than 3000+ photos, ate some of the best food, and most importantly I had one of the most beautiful moments of my life.

I proposed :)

Sometimes when I look back, it all seems very intriguing how every thing falls into place about 6 years ago when I first met Michelle at college. To be honest, I never planned for any of this at all. Michelle was the girl I would always notice in class as she would sit across me every single day. Very quiet and somewhat shy, she had always caught my attention even though to be honest, we probably barely spoke less than 10 words a day.

I guess we got close after she and I became study buddies after getting to know her a little better. There would be times I would stay back in college just to have dinner with her. I remember clearly how very innocently we became best friends and we could laugh and talk about every single thing in the universe (and probably beyond!). Then one fine day, again very innocently, I asked her out on our very first date. I really had fun that afternoon and I cant believe I said it but, I told her “let’s do this again some time” :)

I had thought she would be my really close friend forever… yeah, that was till I had feelings for her. I do remember the nights when we would stay back in campus and sit under our “special” tree and talk about the possibility of us getting together. The feeling was very much mutual but we were very afraid. Afraid that things would not work out and afraid that we would ruin the friendship that we already have. In the end, we just closed our eyes like this >< and took a huge leap of faith. And here we are together 6 years later on :)

I’ll tell you one thing, a relationship is not about finding the perfect partner, its about finding the partner that can make it perfect together. A lot of times we would argue (yes strong couples do argue too) and patch things back. We would make it work. But beyond all that, sometimes I do feel like God is always on our side. You wouldn’t believe the amount of ups and downs we have been though. We laughed together, we cried together.. but most importantly we did it together.

Hehe… at times I feel like Michelle is trying to get me killed :)
But its all good… one thing that she made a huge change in my life was that she showed me the lighter side of life. One which I could never have understood alone. I don’t know how many of you know that I can be a very serious person most of the time. And in that, she became my other half. The exact half that I need.

I don’t think she had expected it but I have been planning for this day to come ever since she left for Australia. The other day I re-read this email I wrote to my manager about my 2011 plans and in Q4 of 2011 it wrote “Seriously think of how to propose to my girlfriend”. Check!
I did it. I finally did it. I got down on one knee and started with “This is very important and I’m only gonna say this once… so listen carefully”. I’m telling you, the emotion that was going through my mind was so overwhelming I couldn’t even get the words out right.

Baby, if you’re reading this, I want to let you know that I wished I had chosen a better place and time to say it but I couldn’t so I had chosen the moment when I felt it was right. And yes, at about 700ft above the ground at Wineglass Bay, I knew it was the right time.

Being engaged is not just about getting down on one knee and giving a ring, its actually a beginning. A beginning of what is to become a lifetime being together. It was a promise. A promise that no matter what may come, you will go through it together.

I don’t know what may come in the years ahead, but one thing I know is that I will hold Michelle’s hand, grow up and grow old…. together.

I have never stopped loving you all these years, and I’m not planning to stop either.

19.10.2011

why are you drooling?

Picture credits goes to its owner. Its from a forumer in Lowyat forums.

If you want to see more pics, perhaps you can go down to his original thread here:
http://forum.lowyat.net/topic/666568

Things to Note:

• Yes, the screen is curved
• Yes, they actually made a platform for the people sitting behind. Just like a cinema.

Why are you drooling? 

Apple will never be the same without him

“Your work is gonna fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied, is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to LOVE WHAT YOU DO”
- Steve Jobs, 2005

A well respected man who defined the way we look at the future. May your soul rest in peace.

I don’t usually post random stuff on the internet but this one is just too funny to miss

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA

God only lays down the paths, You have to walk through it

Eh, this seems familiar. Here I am again at a crossroad. Somehow God has his ways of making you walk through this journey called life.

But if there is one thing I learnt, it is that there are no right or wrong paths… there are just paths. It doesn’t matter which path you take because in the end of the day, it is YOUR LIFE and YOU decide how the story goes. And because this is true, its actually virtually impossible to take a “wrong path” because who gets to tell you how your life should have been? The worst thing that could happen is when you regret doing what other people told you to do when you wanted to do something else in the first place.

Always remember, that you only live life ONCE. Why would you want to waste a moment of it?

Couldn’t sleep at 4:30am in the morning. One of those moments where my mind sang to me

You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Girl, don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling, ’cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way, you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, ’cause you’ll always be my baby

I’m sure of it.

if everyone started doing something weird often enough, it then becomes something normal

Look what I found in  my Lumix LX5 instructions manual? Its a guide of how to camwhore!  Yes believe it or not, its actually one of the  modes available in the LX5 and its called “self portrait”. Its a more polite term for camwhore *ahem*

Note: Look at the angle of which the girl in the illustration is tilting the camera.

*chuckle*
Ah, life is getting more interesting as I grow older.

this is weird but I actually don’t know what is the past tense of ‘sew’…. sewn? sewed?

Like srsly! My grandma brought my favourite shorts back from the dead. I had thought that I threw them away but look what I found today! My favourite pair of shorts! (I can’t believe I still have them after 6 years). Its like… the only pair of shorts I wear out to malls. We learn something weird about jason everyday huh?

I really don’t know how else to express my happiness. Bo kai ah por!