Everything Happens for a Reason

so, what next?

Its been a month since I started my new job. Well not exactly new since its actually my old job. Well one thing has changed for sure. I don’t dread to go to work anymore. Ya know, it really does make a huge difference when you’re doing something you enjoy doing and doing something you hate. But whatever it is, I’m all over and done with that phase now. I’ve done my part, now its time for me to move on.

I don’t know why but I just feel so jaded lately. I used to really be really trying to chase money and all that stuff. I really just couldn’t care less anymore.

I don’t really care about if I get a promotion after this.
I don’t really care about the politics going around in the office (some things don’t change)
I don’t really care that my car is rattling so hard nowadays
I don’t really care that me blogging that I got back my old job might spark some issues with certain people
I don’t really care about the fact that i only have RM100 to use for the rest of the month
I don’t really care that CNY is coming
I don’t really care about the fact that my room is in a mess
I don’t really care that its 2:43am now and I’m supposed to sleep

I JUST DON’T CARE

I don’t know why I’m just so indifferent about so many things lately. Its definitely not me to feel this way. I just feel like I want to be happy and just do whatever I want to do with my life.

Today my dad told me something so honest that it hurts me that he doesn’t know what is coming next. I’m sorry pa but one day you will hopefully understand why I’m not the one you were hoping for it to be. For what its worth, it should never have been me in the first place. But of course you don’t understand that because you only believe what you want to believe. Sigh.

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