time seems to be seeping through my fingers… flowing away like grain of sand

I don’t know why but it seems like the working world passes so fast… I remember earlier this week I told myself that this week would past fast and look where we are? Tmrw is FRIDAY! I don’t know why nowadays I feel like my life is pretty much going on autoplay since I started working.

I wake up, I go to work, I have lunch, I finish work, I go home, I eat dinner, I sleep,
I wake up, I go to work, I have lunch, I finish work, I go home, I eat dinner, I sleep,
I wake up, I go to work, I have lunch, I finish work, I go home, I eat dinner, I sleep….

Before I know it, its payday again and I have a full month ahead of me again. Am I supposed to let my life pass like this? I remember every decade I live, I will take in a heavy sigh and tell myself “here goes another 10 years of my life to come”. True enough, if you think of it, since I was born till I was standard 4 (10yrs old) it felt very long. Since standard 5 till I was in 3rd yr of uni (20yrs old) it felt very long… but I totally forgot to do this routine when I was 21 so here I am doing it now….

*sigh* Why do I have the feeling like the next 10 years is just going to fly by just like that? argh!!!

My colleague told me this saying.. pardon me, its in Malay:

Bila muda, kita banyak energy tapi takde duit nak jalan
Bila middle-age, duit ada sikit, energy pun ada tapi takde masa nak jalan
Bila tua, kita banyak duit, banyak masa, tapi takde energy nak jalan….

Translation:
When we’re young, we have a lot of energy but little money to go around travelling.
When we’re middle-aged, we have some money, we have the energy but we don’t have the time to travel.
When we’re old, we have a lot of money, a lot of time, but we fcukin’ don’t have the energy anymore.. WTF?

And now its time for me to go to bed again because I have to go to work tmrw. Am I supposed to close my eyes to sleep so I’ll have enough energy to work the next day? Or am I supposed to stay up and cherish the time I have in this world but I will have to sacrifice sleep? Hmmmm